ok.. u know what, i'm freakin' out!!!
seriously, i can feel what jasmin and other previous bride-to-be felt when they have to do so many things just to get married... i know they must have countless of freakin'-out-moments... and trust me, it is NO fun at all to be worried all the time... i think this will give me more wrinkles... thanx! i'm goin' to be 26 next year, and wrinkles? c'mon... give me a break! i hope my body won't react to stress as much as i've expected.. i wish it could be easier...
anyway, i'm browsing trisno.net (as suggested by dana)--it was pretty!! i love it... but i bet it is going to be expensive! --- keep the ideas coming in...
the wedding package that i've picked has already inclusive of a photographer; however, i dont like the way they take pictures... it is so boring and straight forward and not creative at all...
(i know i am so fussy in so many things); but this is me wedding pictures that we're talking about... the kind of pics that will be immortalized for eternity; and the kind that always remind me of my youth and my wedding with the man i'm so in love with... that is why a good photographer is very important for my wedding...
i'm supposed to find a good wedding photographer from JB
(cost saving); but it is hard to find one... the good ones that i know are from KL or shah alam
(that i need to pay extra for mileage and accomodation) (
--klu boleh mesti lah nak budget kan...
*nana si pengantin budget*anyway, my mom called me and she told me that she already got a hold of the caterer and the khemah (yup! the wedding is at my place); and shockingly, she informed me that she already asked her friend to design my wedding card and she will pick the one she likes best...
but wait a minute... i thought this is me wedding???
my mom is so excited that she wants to plan for everything and she will get upset if i said anything
("anak derhake nanti susah nak beranak!"), which scares me like hell...
so, she will decide on the invitation card, my wedding dresses
(that i plan to rent shj), the pelamin, the caterer, the khemah, the theme color, the goodies etc....
all in all, i think she is planning her own wedding (NOT MINE!!!) but hers... irwan and i will be the main models of the whole event; but the rest are her ideas... her vision of a great wedding... her vision of how her wedding supposed to be like... can i say something about it? NO!!! i'll be anak derhaka...
there are times i feel so mad that she wants to be in control of everything; sometimes i kinda glad that i dont have to do all those things, sometimes i feel sorry for her for having a 'cikai's wedding'
(wedding org zaman dolu2 kan asal boleh je...) but sometimes i feel that i need to tell her to back off a little bit so that i can plan me wedding so that i won't regret it in the future, and so that i won't be like her when my daughter is getting married (InsyaALLAH...)
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mama, i love u so much and u r the best mother for me, but i hope u can consider the fact this is my wedding... me! MY WEDDING!